Do I accept failure?

No, and yes. No, I don't intend to give up on this, but yes, I've got to realize that for the past couple of weeks I have been failing. I originally let it slip when I was having a cold and used that as a reason not to be disciplined, but the last weeks I've had no excuses. Last week I accepted that I had failed, and decided to not even try that week, but rather get some other things done (like creating a new version of and old image: http://feneur.blogspot.com/2010/03/updated-experiment-blue-elements.html , and finishing creating a theme for a website I'm working on, that's still in progress though, so wait a couple of days and you'll know more...) so I could leave them behind and start over in a better position than last time.

So, this week I'm trying to start again :P Not so successful overall, but if nothing else my apartment is actually cleaner now than it has been for the last couple of months, so it's a start. I do intend to do a couple of things in a different way this time, to start with I'm only going to write about it on this blog once a week or so (I'm thinking of letting this be my personal blog though, so other posts might appear from time to time). That way I won't be as tempted to move on just to have something to write here. Just a pile of successes, while the truth is that I had to interpret things quite liberally to be able to call it a success. That leads on to the next thing, this time I intend to be sure things are correct before moving on. If my intention is to be at bed at a certain time or to write a certain number of words one day I will have to do exactly that to call it a success, not a minute or word or whatever later/less/etc.

So, like last time, sleep is the first issue I'll have to tackle. And like last time it's going to be hard to find the discipline and self-control to actually do things right. One step at a time though, and I think it's possible. If it takes more failures, then that's what it takes. For now my goal will have to be 24:00 by the end of this week.